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Subject:free at last!
Time:10:39 pm
well friends,
thank you to all who have been praying for me. I finally moved away from my friend! Friday her and I had a huge fight...I had enough of the verbal abuse and I told her I was leaving. So I moved in with some friends who moved down here in December from Ohio...many of you know who they are, but for safety sake, I will not disclose the information. I am safe thought. Please pray for the decisions that I have to make. I have four horses that I have put up for sale. I can't afford to keep them. Plus I'm selling my horse trailer, my travel trailer, my truck and some of my horse gear. So if you know anyone looking...let me know! Also pray for my former friend as she is still trying to control me...we can't talk like adults so we have to go to a counselor/mediator to even have a conversation. Basically she want's to dominate me and play mind games and I have put my foot down and will not listen to her mumbojumbo.
God is so good. He provided for me a place to stay and a new job. Thank you for your prayers. I cherish them!

Much Love,
Jenny
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Time:01:50 am
Hi all,
some of you know about my currrent situation here in FL. Let me fill you in on some stuff that is going on recently in my world.
In August I moved down here to help my friend with her horse farm/ ministry. I aquired a few horses (like 4) a horse trailer, a truck, a travel trailer which I call home and a whole bunch of miscalenous horse gear. Anyway, I started going to counseling to get some help with things that happened to me in the past and for my personality defect (this is the only way I can explain what my problem is ). My friend that I live with has helped me through a lot. In recent weeks or months, things between us have gotten pretty rocky. Bascially I cannot take the verbal, mental, and emotional abuse that she is putting me though. I could be here for hours just telling you everything that has been going on, but I won't bore you with the details. I have prayed about this situation, have talked with a close friend of mine, and spoke with my counselor (who is a Christian) and they told me that I need to move away from my friend. This comes at a very bad time for me. I lost my full time job and I'm only working part time right now. I'm not making it financially. I have been in great distress about this decision and I really don't want to leave. Today was a pretty okay day with my friend. This makes me look and feel like it is me who is crazy and dysfunctional, not her. I will admit that some of the things are my fault...failure to control my mouth and let the Holy Spirit speak though me, and my short temper when it is set off by something or by someone. My friend has told me countless times that I am not an adult and that when I start acting like an adult, she will treat me like one. I have been told that I am spoiled a_ _ rotten, I'm a F_ _ _ ing B**ch, that I have no friends because of my attitue, I"m prideful and will not humble myself to her authority, I have satan working in my heart, I am full of anger, resentment, bitterness, and pride, I will never be able to handle being in the ministry because people don't like me because of my attitude...the list goes on and on. The bottom line is I need to leave, although I don't want to and things today are going okay. But I know they are only going to get worse. Please pray for me. Pray that I will know the right way to handle the situation. Pray also that God will reveal to me what I need to change in my life to be more like Him. I will be going to Ohio at the end of June for a friends wedding. This will give me some time to think and seek God's direction. I love you all my dear friends. Thank you in advance for you prayers.

Jenny
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Subject:me again
Time:10:08 am
Current Mood:confusedconfused
well i have a big decision to make. sometimes i don't like being an adult. other times its not so bad.
God has called me to use horses to glorify His name and reach people for Him. He has blessed me with two horses of which I am going to FL to see on Wed. They are currently living at my friends farm. Heres the situation: Before I left for my vacation I quit my job and moved into a house with three other girls. My horses are in FL. I have no job in ohio. So I'm seriously thinking about moving to FL at least for the winter. I was going to live with my friends in Ohio for a year then move to FL. But my horses are there and I can teach. I don't know what to do....I've been praying and waiting......so we'll see what happens. FL looks kinda good..... :-)

Jen
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Subject:hey
Time:09:51 pm
Current Mood:tiredtired
so i'm here. the reason for me stopping by here is cause myspace is having problems. and xanga is to complicated at this hour. I really dont even know what time it is. in ohio its 1am...but the night is still young here...only 10pm. Just as my body is getting used to the hours here, it will be time to go home. such is life.

speaking of home, I don't have a job to go back to. I do have a place to live, thank the Lord and my friend who owns the house in Madison which I now call home. and my roomie misses me. poor girl.

I managed to make sue angry but we worked though it. i think. We've been doin a Bible study together which has been interesting. Its one thing to do a Bible study over the phone when you are in the same time zone but when theres three hours between the two of us, well its nuts. She called me at 6:30am this morning. And all day I've been humming the snoopy theme song. someone please shoot me.

so thats whats up with me. Whats up with y'all? Goodnight. and God bless.
Jen
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Subject:Operation Merry Christmas, Ranee!
Time:09:27 pm
Current Mood:happyhappy
Operation Merry Christmas, Ranee! went off without a hitch this afternoon! I knew she could not afford beet pulp and corn for her horse, Beau, so I went to tractor supply on Fri and bought the feed for her. After church today I stopped at her house. When I got there I asked her come and help me unload her Christmas gift! Man, I wish I had a camera to capture the look on her face when I opened the trunk of my car! Her jaw fell open and she was speechless! Mission accomplished!! Then we sat and visited a while. Then she went off to work and I went to ashtabula to got to TS and Wal mart. There I discovered that Ranee works with my friend Kate. Such a small world!

So on my way home I was so full of happiness over the fact that I could serve Ranee I got to thinking about the first Christmas. I thought that if I was so happy at giving all that I had to Ranee, God must of been thrilled beyond all measure when He sent His son Jesus to us on that first Christmas. Can you image the pride He felt when Mary gave birth to Jesus in that little stall? I'll bet that God could not hide His excitement. In fact, I knew He couldn't hide his excitement because He tells us all about His son in His Word, the Bible. As you gather with your family this holiday, remember the best gift of all, Jesus. And be excited to share Him with someone you know who does not know Him.
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Time:12:00 am
Many thing about life perplex me...such as my step mother, my mother, and Ranee.

my step mother Pat who listens to half of my conversations and hears nothing I say

my mother who thinks I'm either DOA or stupid...she uses the same excuse every time I confront her about her drinking.

and Ranee who will not return my phone calls and gives some really good excuses about why she didn't return my calls or answer the first time I call. It's almost like she has hid herself in a cave. I know for her its a matter of trust. And I know she suffers from depression and doesn't like to let her feelings show. Hopefully she's not an agent or something who will self destruct if I find out any thing else about her.

what do all the people above have in common? They don't know Christ. Dude, without Christ, I would be there too. I would be the person who hears but doesn't listen. Probably why they don't know Christ. Without Christ I would be the hopeless drunk, trying to convince the cat into thinking I was sober. Without Christ I would be trying to hide in a cave from the world and from God. And if I didn't know Christ and didn't love the people that I mentioned above, I proabably wouldn't be writing this in frustration. Oh this list could go on and on....so as I write this I am reminded of the meaning of Christmas. What happens after the lights burn out, the presents unwrapped and tossed aside and the cookies eaten? Whats left? Nothing but a dried up Christmas tree thirsty for water. Thats what people need. They need water. Living water. Living water that comes only from the real gift of Christmas. I see past the lights, the presents, even the cookies to who Christmas is about. Do you?
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Subject:sadness and a heavy heart
Time:09:09 am
Thunder died last night. Ranee called me at around 4:45pm yesterday and said that Thunder couldn't get up. So we tried and tried to get him up. He just had no strength in his rear legs and back. We were finally able to find a vet to come out. Praise the Lord it was Dr. Wade and not Dr. Rob. Dr. Wade had a good bedside manner. His temp was low and he just didn't have the will to get up. So she injected him and he didn't have to fight anymore. We were all crying and sitting there with him on the floor. At least he didn't have to suffer. Dr. Wade thought that he may have had cancer, lymphnoma. Well Thunder is up in heaven running free and enjoying green pastures. He is no longer in pain.
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Subject:Its a God thing
Time:09:52 pm
Current Mood:relievedrelieved
God has an amazing sense of humor! I was supposed to teach tonight from 5pm until 9pm. Well, due to the weather, Jim re-scheduled the lessons for tomorrow. So I shuffled around the house in my jammies and was watching a movie when Ranee called. Actually it was her roomate Adrian. She was in a panic. Something about Ranee's horse Thunder, couldn't get up and she was calling to see if I could come and help. I hung up the phone and got my rear into gear and threw on my work wear, ran out the door and started my car. The roads were bad, and to top it off I got stuck behind a truck going 30 mph. nice. I finally got there and she had this blank look on her face. So I hurried over to where Thunder was and he was just laying there, eating hay. What happened was that he apparently got tangled up in his winter blanket and couldn't get up. Ranee somehow managed to get him to come into the isle of the barn. So we tried and tried to get him up. Finally I took Beau (her other horse) outside so that maybe Thunder would have motivation to get up. After a little coaxing, some bute mixed into grain and a few carrots and apple sauce, we were able to get him up. His legs were shakey but I don't think he tore his stiffle or anything. We took them both out and hand grazed them in the snow. He seemed to be walking better after that. We then find out during dinner that Adrians dad was out there in the barn that morning looking for tools and he saw Thunder laying like that but didn't think anything of it. So the poor horse was probably laying like that most of the day.

Last year I made it a point to start serving and praying for Ranee. She is not a believer, though we had some interesting conversations on faith and religion back when we worked at Mary Dana's together. I'm grateful that she called me because thats a major step for her. She does not like to ask for help so thats cool that she called me. Its just a God thing that I didn't have to work and that I was home so that I could hurry over there to help her. God used me to help Ranee. Thats neato!

Jen :-)
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Time:07:37 pm
so I don't update that much in lj. I prefer xanga anyday. oh well. I was here, so I'm writing. lol
The weather was nice today. But its supposed to snow for thanksgiving.
Grandma is doing really bad. She is in monitored care at lake west. She is not getting better and she is in a lot of pain. Pray for her, please. Her name is June.
Work was work. What more can I say?! My back is killing me.

alrighty...

Jen :-)
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Subject:stink
Time:08:36 am
Current Mood:happyhappy

I've come to the conclusion that my roomate does not change her underwear.  This must explain why our room smells like dirty rear ALL THE TIME!  After using a full bottle of fabreeze, I have begun to use lysol to hopefully de-stink the room.  You know your room stinks when your friends don't want to come and hang out in  your room.  The other night it smelled so bad that I couldn't sleep.  Thankfully I'm on the top bunk, but stink like hers seems to rise (kinda like heat).  The other day it smelled like something died in the room...not was just my roomate laying in bed.  When will this be over?  The sick thing is that she is getting married this summer.  ohmy.  Somebody pass the fabreeze, please!!

peace out,
Jen

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